i decided one thing...since yesterday, i wanna do my best to find the real thing who miss in my heart(yeah i have a heart sometimes w )
i'm gonna find the good guy this year, soon or later >< i know it's not easy like dramas but we can't tell what will hapen if we didn't tryed once so i'm not going to wait anymore now..

i'm HUNTING the real one!
i wanna fell in love somedays, i wanna be hurt because of love,i've never been really in love so i can say i don't know what's that... yeah love is SEX so i need to take the good choice cos i won't wanna share my lonely pussy to a one night relationship guy...i'm not a dirty bitch...i'm a sensitive and kind bitch it's not the same!
i wanna cry because of the one i feel something for, i wanna share all what i have in my mind to this real one, but...i don't really know if that's possible ...

by the way i'm sure now..i won't miss the real thing !

anyway it's 3.46 am now, good night!

yeah right now i'm going to sleep but before that i wanna put the feelings i have in this fackin shit blog...
yeah i'm a little fed up of too many things, i think i can't take it anymore, one day will come and i will explode like a bomb...well i don't know when but when the day will come it will be horrible for the person who will be in front of me at that moment..

i wanna say to all ppl i see in the street FUCK and i wanna BEAT ppl like dead meat omfg

i think i will really buy a punchingball cos these days i will really need it!

i need something much...but i don't have it anymore when i notice it, it's always too late ...FUCK

Actually since the starting,i've always have been alone, it's funny to say that but i don't have confidence in nobody inclued myself ...

Maybe the big tension/pression making me angry will disapear with tears...maybe...it's the only way to feel better...

i wanna sell my fackin daily life , i don't want it anymore...
but i think i'm not changing finally, i'm not searching the things i want, i'm waiting for having them maybe that's my real problem.
i don't wanna open my eyes to this cruel REALITY, i wanna fuck her much cos because of her i feel like a dead worm under your shoes...HOW STUPID I AM!

i'm so angry agaisn't myself for not being like other ppl...
somedays i'm really wondering about the signification of my life
anyway i know that i will die soon or later,
so i don't wanna expect something of the FUTUR because the things are always the same and never hapen like i would like to be...

i'm not STRONG enought to support that life so i'm imagining myself like having superpowers or being like i've always wanted to be...i'm tired of myself right now,i feel like a vegetable.
IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK I AM! SO FUCK YOU !

Allright tomorow i'll have 3hour of exam, i'll have Korean civilisation (modern and old) =___= i don't have the power to study omfg
i have so many many maps and dates to learn ...
i hate Korean history azlkhdzajdzlkad AIRCHHHHHHHHHHHEZFIZHEF

it was 5.53 pm when i started to write but now 6.25 pm ...FUCK

i think that tomorow i will laugh in front of my fackin' paper lol





SHIT

i think i will die alone T___T
i'm fed up of couples in the street hugging, hanging together and kissing è____é i wanna kill them all!!! they don't have any respect for other single ppl!!
WTF
GO DIE PPL
>:@@

now im going to study or to prepare my death sentence for tmr...

Miss"s/and Gentlemen GO FUCK UR ASS IN THA HELL!

ps: notice that they're not hearts = dont fuck with meh...it's not tha mood for joke è____é#

yeah like many posts in many blog these days , i wish you guys A Happy new Yeah blah blah blah
so , anyway this year will be like the others ...we keep on thinking of new changements but it's always the same,
i think that 2010 will be as boring as 2009 !
so i dont wanna wish something that it wont happen...i will wait for a surprising destiny yeah =_=

♥

i thanks so much Vicky and her friend to have been here for that new year day cos i know that without them i would be bored at home ...
LOVE YOU GUYS!

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i went to a party yesterday with Vicky
i thought i would Drink a lot and make party BUT
we were so bored it was annoying omfg
maybe going to an exam would be better lmao

it was like a japanese conference where only vicky and me were french lol
I was like EHHHH AM I IN UFO PLANET? lol
WTF

i need to improve my japanese better è_é

♥

we went to Macdo and ate ice cream and fries after that boring party w
i miss macdo ...

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now im writing and it's 4.49 pm
it sux i will have many many many exams and i need to study hard but
i dont know where to begin cos i forgot all that fackin korean @_@
zajzkhjfzkef

I WANNA BE INTELLIGENT x_x

♥

dear GOD (yeah i believe in god but only when i'm in shit w)

plz give me th power to pass my exams or give me a chance to repass it w

anyway now im going to study

HOPE THE POWER WILL BE BY MY SIDE *__*/ yoshhhhhhhh

Today i had a facking day omfg
i helped my friend to prepare xmas dinner for tmr...
but i had to go to my sister's house to feed her fackin mouse (yes it's an hamster but i dont give a fuck it's a mouse/rat/useless/shit)
and i came back home late (about 23h~)
my mom told me so good things for xmas :D yeah so now i now that i"m a bitch, and i disgust her a lot, she told me all what she had in her (black)heart...

♥fuu~~~

i love her ****

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so it's been a week i've came back late cose i had to prepare the dinner for tmr
i've put about 20€ and more for food and co
so i can't cancel it ...

omfg i want to have a good moment with my friends..

so even if she told me to stay at home for(ever) few days
i will hang out

fuck i'm too kind ...i won't give her my young years NO NEVER!!

♥

i wanna be free...to do something without being culprit for it
sometimes i envy ppl in the street hanging out happily
cos i always have to hide it to my family

it's too much pression i can't stand it anymore

ANYWAY FUCK YOU

♥

one of my old sister came back home (yeah she's not living here anymore ~so lucky)
she gave me her PINK IPOD yahuuu
i have something like new technology w
i feel like i live in a modern year now www

♥Merry Kiss My ass♥

Last Day i saw a japanese movie called 蛇にピアス
i really liked it !!
i think the actor played very well and the story was very good !
i wanna read the book OMFG
w

♥

i liked the actor who played "Ama" his real name is "高良健吾" Kengo Kora

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anyway i'm bored right now w
i wanna study but i don't have the power to ._.

i feel like i were a vegetable =_="

... that's all for the moment...Ama i love you♥ w 

umm well i'm not good at writing about meh...but i wanna share something to the world tonight! YEAH MAN I HAVE A REVELATION! i'll introduce ya tha best guys of the world! i love them very much, maybe more than the galaxy of the infinity of the cosmos of the universe! i think my life without them would be impossible or a laste of time keisukehhhhh and Vickyehhhhhh

♥

are tha BEST THING who came in my life!

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I DONT WANNA SHARE THEM GUYS LOVE YOU FOREVER! chuu

 

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i'm back after a long time of absence! :D yeah
i had to change all my blog's pictures and wallpaper ^^
i'm happy of the new face of my blog ☆
hehe
today i went with my friend to buy some letter paper for my penfriends :D cos it's nearly Christmas and i need to get prepared for it w
i need to save a lot of money it's hard cos i wanna hardly make shopping TAT
nyan~~nyan~~ é__è

saturday will be a big day for meh because i will have to go at two parties xD
one for the birthday of a friend and another at my sister's house :D
let's drink FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~ hehe





that's all for the moment hehe

Sunday will be an unusual day *o*!
WHY??
because of the special Concert of Girugamesh :D yeaay i'll see them for the second time ! i can' wait @_@ hehehe
so I'll go with VICKOO supa early there xD ahaha
we have the hope that we can have autograph if we go there early and see them xD
BELIEVE DON't KILL haha


I can't waittttttttttttttt NYAHAH *__________*
but i donno what to wear there x_x HELP ME VICKOO XD mdrr